Yay I survived second day without alan. haha..

I think God must have known how down I was.. especially today!! the nasty people.. so he blessed me with a good night :) it was great.. there, my thing to be thankful for...

sigh~ alan went for reservist and it feels so quiet now.. :(

sent him and his friends to camp yesterday morning.. hahah had to woke up at like 530 man.. to drive all the way to near tuas.. then drive back in jam condition. slept till like 1130. then drove to ntu again for 15 min meeting. then drove back again and did work at office. went for dinner with jul at hk cafe.. came back and did mostly PA stuffs and resumes all the way till now..

hope tomorrow will be a good day although i'll start at 830 and have like 7 hours of school..

i miss him already :(

2 weeks is hard to bear..

thing to be thankful for,
hm.. i have my friends to cheer me up just now... :)

I just wonder how people can be so utterly mean and don't feel that there's anything wrong with it.

In a group, they tend to stick to the groups within the group because they can make use of them for their projects. Yet they lack even the most basic courtesy. During msn discussions, one min they can ignore somebody saying hi to them who had just entered the chat, the next min they can say hi to one of their friend who also just entered. Why the blatant bias? Furthermore, they can totally disregard sms and emails from their groupmate who was sick and keen to be in the know of the project and how she can contribute. They don't even have the basic courtesy to reply. Are they simply self-centred, or just deluded?

Things aren't working out lately and my group mates are the worst bunch of people I've seen. Sigh. Move on move on...

Thankful for?
My other groupmates in other modules are like saints.

How do you define "The One"?

The One like leading actors or actresses can and do change.

In movies, when an actress backs out for the leading position. The circumstances change here and there. Another actress fills in for the role. Now the leading actress for the movie is actress no. 2. It could be actress no. 1 but fate dictated that it isn't.

In life, your current beau is The One. If you happen to break up somehow, when all the fairy tales are gone. Another guy takes the place of your boyfriend. He becomes The One (No. 2).

The One is only dependent on who is the one who lasts till the end. When the story ends and the writer puts down his pen...

One thing to be thankful for today,

that my dog is safe and healthy, relatively.

Saw a dead cat lying in a sleeping position by the side of the road today. It was knocked down by a car. Lying in its pool of blood. I hope it is dead and that it didn't suffer much. Given the circumstances I think it will suffer more if it was alive and lying on the road, unless it could have survived. Was crying in the car. Sigh. I hate how animals have to pay for man's mistakes over and over again. Perhaps that's what God has planned for them. Just hope it didn't suffer much pain...

I think I'm complaining too much even though people are not as nice to me as I am to them and would like them to reciprocate so everyone can be. >.<

I shall an wei myself with one thing to be thankful for each day.

Well for today, I am thankful that...

I have at least about eight hours of sleep before I need to wake up for class.

(it kinda suck when you are in a depressed mood with everything going against you and you realised you have like 3 hours of sleep before you have to go to school and face the world (and nasty people) again.)

nights all~

I think there's been more downs than ups lately. All my classes are quite good cept for one.

Group of 5 girls. Two are friends each. Left me - the odd one out. They don't attempt to involve me. They don't make efforts to make me feel part of the group. Even though I tried talking to them, tried contributing in discussions.

Really it just don't fits. According to so and so, it's a group theory thing. People stick with groups because they perceive them as being of more value to make use of. I mean you would rather befriend the group than the individual. Sigh. Utter spoilage
of mood.

And now I'm worrying over stupid stuffs like presentation clothes and bloody expensive court shoes that i'm probably gonna wear only once.

Everything seems a waste of time. Because the effort you put in isn't recognise. You don't get what you deserve. And those who seemed less deserving are leading a good life. But who am I to complain...

I wish holidays can go on forever.

So many stuffs to worry. So many stuffs to pay and so little money!!

School's starting soon and I think next sem I have to take 7 modules which will be a killer.. Just hope the chemistry tuition classes go well so will have extra cash to pay...

Spent the whole week memorising chem stuffs and today was the first class!! It went alright I guess..

:(

here's xmas and i'm looking at someone sleep =(

pros and cons to everything i guess.. but we always seek perfection. it's nice to stay outside because no parental control mainly.

but living outside also means that you cannot bath as and when you like, you cannot boil water or cook as and when you like, you cannot wake up to brush teeth as and when you like.. and it just sucks.. like your life is so totally controlled..

well anyhow merry x'mas to all!!! enjoy your holidays and spread the cheer :)

Hey i saw this restaurant on xiaxue's blog and i went to check it out and it looks seriously great. i mean the food looks great and delicious and as that alan say "high class" and yet it's pretty affordable.. we are planning to go down and check it out. either on xmas day if there's space or when the festivities are over.
anyway click here for the url.

I don't get why cab drivers like to go on about how there are too many cabs, not enough passengers, can't earn enough money when every single time i want to take a cab, i have to wait at least 30 mins to an hour. and since they say there are no customers, why are they all so choosy of their customers. the cab is empty, the available signal is up, there is no on-call sign. yet they sped past everybody.

anyway i'm finally home... cause i must make my parents happy for a while otherwise they will give me no end.. anyhow monday's xmas right??!! i've no idea what to do for x'mas.. bleah.. and i've got like 5 days to memorise the entire O level chem syllabus!!

Sigh. Mum just called me and said the usual stuffs again. About how she's doing all the housework at home and how I'm not home during the holidays and I'm supposed to pack the room yada yada.

I guess I just wished my Mum complained a little less.. I know I like to compare. Like alan's mum keep their house clean while working at the same time and she doesn't complain one bit according to Alan.

And my mum's like totally not working you know. And she kept going on about how she's doing all the housework alone and everything. And sometimes it just gets so annoying because I'm not at home in the first place to mess up the house. And we are already moving to a smaller house as it is. Sigh.

But then it's not as if my mum doesn't have a right to complain. I'm just bothered that's all. Because now is the holidays and I've been studying every single day for the past 5 - 6months for the sem and I really want to enjoy this 1 month break and she keeps bothering me the whole day and I'm just afraid I'll lose my temper. Sigh.

They kept going on about me when I'm at home and now that I'm not disturbing them anymore they are going on about why I'm not at home. GRR.

I need a holiday. You know I had to get away from all this nagging to the point that I actually told them I was away in Thailand for 1 week just so I don't have to answer them everyday. The extent to which I'll go for a break.

And they kept going on about how I shouldn't be teaching tuition for alan and ya da ya da. And it's not as if school work is not under my control. And sigh. I'm know myself and my schedules best and I'm going to be 21 as it is. Can they just let me breathe a little..

Ok ranting quota has been reached for the day. Please please just let me parents give me a break and stop going on and on about stuffs that are so superficial. They are never satisfied. Give them good results, they want good conduct. Give them good conduct, they want other stuffs. It's never ending.

oops. something bad happened today. sigh. it was a rather nice day actually.. 4 of us had a fabulous lunch at the hawker centre at kallang. then we were sending jul home and then this guy just came out of nowhere and crash into our car while alan was parking. and then there was this huge scratch and dent on the driver side door.. and the driver blamed the cab driver who sped away. yada yada. and in the end he said to split the damages half half.. so end up we have to fork out like 100 bucks for the repair. and money is too damn tight already!! sigh.. tomorrow alan have to send the car for repair in the morn and can only collect it at 6pm..

sigh nothing good happens to us these days.. problems after problems...

although alan's family just came back from hols and his sis bought me this very nice pair of earrings.. yay :)

alright shall go off now..

So anyway, I've changed the skin of my blog to a more cheery one because I definitely need that right now...

Anyway no matter how bleak things are (not that things are bleak), there's so much to be thankful for...

So, I've been really busy. I know it's weird, like I'm extra busy when school's over. But let's see..

First I've got to pack all the stuffs I've accumulated in my room over the years because we are moving house. Yep, I kinda miss my house though. Because it's so much bigger than newer houses because they don't build them this big anymore, and because hmm, I don't know. People get comfortable with things I guess.

Hence, I'm super busy going back and forth to pack all my stuffs and my mum is breathing down my neck everyday about how we are moving soon and things are not packed and the evaluator (or whatever you call that person, I kinda forgot) is coming. Pretty much in a hurry.

Money is tight in certain sense, because we can't get HDB houses anymore (some stupid ruling of HDB). So basically we are now paying more (private houses), to get a smaller house. Sigh. Although it doesn't really involve me because I'm not staying at home right now...

But it's nice now because Dec is my bro's and dad's birthday so the whole family is meeting up a lot and stuffs...

It's always nice to stay outside in a way because I'm not sure how to explain it but it kinda improves relations because you treasure each other more because you spend less time together and stuffs like that. I'm not saying I like to be away from my family but it's nice to not shout and scream at each other over small stuffs. And it's nice not to be nagged at =p

But in a way, I feel conflicted. Because I like staying outside, cause of above mentioned benefits as well as being with Alan, but yet I kinda miss my home, family and my dog!! so yup, I try to go home more often and I know SG is kinda small but I'm always lazy heh. And I think the biggest problem, actually two, is that my parents doesn't know I'm staying with Alan and you know I hate to find lots of excuses why I'm not coming back home and why they can't visit me, and also because I'm driving around when I'm not supposed to heh... Shhh..

But anyway I'm going to teach O levels chemistry rather soon cause alan needs a chem teacher and also cause I thought it would be kinda fun since I like to teach (although I hope I don't get stumped by students) and it will bring in extra cash for us. So yep, keep my fingers crossed that things will go well cause we really need it. Basically everything is good cept that cash is tight now. Rental, home rental, car loan, basic day-to-day stuffs. Lots of money needed!!

I think I will be getting my results next week. At first I was kinda confident but it kinda eroded away as the days go by. haha. I don't know... Obviously I can do better but you know, I always like to slack even though I like to study as well..

Sigh I feel kinda guilty for not meeting up with my friends as much as I should. But these few weeks are kinda hectic and I still need to memorise chemistry stuffs, pack stuffs... and laziness I admit is a part of it!
Ern, Choons and MX are abroad right now. I was supposed to go with them but heck, so much to do, and only 1 month holidays!! Sorry girls!!

Anyway hope we can meet up pre-christmas so I can give you girls your presents!!

And four of us (zy, zhu, laureen) supposed to meet up today and I was all ready to go out n stuffs. But dear zy got stuck at the causeway haha.. poor girl. I hate getting stuck and you know not moving, and you simply have no choice but to wait, unlike say when you are queuing for food.. I hope I get to meet them soon, but it's hard cause they are all busy girls as well!!

Alright enough blogging and ramblings.. I do hope I don't meet any nasty people for the next year and on. Cause I really feel affected personally when meeting nasty people who have no qualms about hurting other people you know? Seriously wish only nice people around heh!

Currently house-sitting for alan's family cause they went on holidays. haha alan's mum is bloody nice to me and friendly. And his mum says she doesn't trust alan with the dogs haha.. their dogs..

alright i'm out of here.. have a happy dec hols!! or work for that matter..